University

University is a term I came to be familiar with pretty much as soon as I started school at the age of 5. Education, to my parents, is everything. It's understandable, of course. If it weren't for their educations, they probably wouldn't be where they are today (which is a pretty good place).

All my life though, the pressure's always been on. Every year I would be yelled at because of my grades when we got report cards. They were just never good enough. I suppose since I'm sort of an emotionally weak person, my dad's always been able to pick on that. He always used to tell me things like:

"All I've wanted from you, as my daughter, is for you to be the best,"

"I never got the kind of opportunities you do here, and yet I was the best student in my province, so why aren't you?"

"Ever since the day you started school, I've waited for you to excel and you still haven't,"

"If someone else can get a perfect, why can't you?"

"You'll never be anything without education and when I die, you'll be my biggest regret."

As a result, I've always strived to do well at school. I'm in Grade 12 now and my dad still has never said he was proud of my marks. As much as I want to be a good daughter and please him, I guess it's just not going to happen. I'm sorry he wasted 18 years of his life hoping for something that would never happen.

On another note though, I've been accepted to university. We were hoping I would get in to OttawaU and I did, but not with as prestigious a scholarship as he hoped. Even though I've been accepted, I didn't get in with the grades I wanted either. The grades that allowed me entrance to university were mediocre, nothing to be proud of. Certainly nothing for my dad to be proud of either. I know he's always wanted to have conversations with his friends and be able to tell them good things about me. Unfortunately, there's nothing good about me to talk about. I just hope he doesn't waste another 18 years of his life waiting to find something good enough about me to be glad about.

Sorry, dad.

Christmas with the Kids

I've been taking piano lessons since I was about 6 years old and every Christmas I would bring my piano teacher a small Christmas present. Well, for once, the roles have been reversed in a way.

I recently started teaching piano this year and I received a couple gifts from two of my students. I was so surprised when they gave me the presents since I honestly wasn't expecting them. It was so nice! The gifts weren't anything spectacular, per say, but it's the thought that counts right?

Anyways, even though I'm teaching piano right now, I am still a student. This Wednesday I'll be seeing my teacher, Sandra, the last time before the break so I need to get her a little present. I'm not sure what I should get her though. I think last year I got her a bath set so I'll have to think of something new this year.

Well, that's pretty much it. Just wanted to share the small bit of joy in my life after teaching this past Saturday. :)

Christmas-related rants...

I love Christmas, really I do, I just don't like winter. Everyone seems to be complaining about how we don't have any snow but to be honest...that makes me really happy. Call me an immigrant (even though I was born in one of the colder provinces, Manitoba) but I just don't like snow.

Actually, that's not entirely true.

If there could be snow without it being cold, without it ruining my hair, without it making me slip, and without it requiring me to shovel it off of my driveway, I would be very okay with snow. Unfortunately, that's not the case. Therefore, I conclude that I hate winter. It can snow on Christmas...as long as it melts the next day.

Also, speaking of Christmas, I never really understood the deal with Christmas lists. I mean, personally, I find them sort of selfish. There are so many people in the world who don't even own pencils to begin with while others sit around trying to think up things they want because they already have everything they need. Christmas is about giving, isn't it? A Christmas list, to me, sounds like someone saying "this is what I want and now that I've told you, you better get it for me". It sounds selfish if you ask me.

On that note, one of my friends called me from the mall. She was doing her Christmas shopping and she asked me what I wanted for Christmas. I told her I didn't want anything but she wouldn't accept that. So instead, I told her that if she wanted to give me a really good Christmas present, she could donate $100 to a charity of her choice.

 I didn't share that story to brag about what a great person I am (because I'm really not) but if there are so many other needy people in the world and Christmas is about giving...well then why aren't you giving to them?

Irena Sendler

Ignore the bottom picture...haha

But please, read the top about Irena. What an amazing woman!

G'Raph

Ahaha.. I just came out of Advanced Functions class okay? -.-

Loving You Tonight

So I'm helping my friend, Nethmi, perform a song for our school's coffee house. It's a great song, here are the lyrics:

Lost,

In the day,

In a way

 Its the same as the one before this and I wish,

I could say that its all black and white

But its gray,

Its the same, its the same

 And I'm so tired but you are what I'm coming home to

Oh I'm thinkin' 'bout a red wine, buzz and takin' it easy

I got you in my arms,

Takin' a break from crazy

 

Chorus:
And I'll say hey,

You'll say baby,

How's your day I'll say crazy,

But its all gonna be alright,

You'll kiss my smile,

I'll pull you closer,

Spend awhile just gettin' to know ya,

But its all gonna be alright,

Loving you tonight,

 

And you are there

 In my heart,

At the start

Of my my every morning and I

Can't deny,

By the end of the day that I'm runnin' on empty

But you make me full,

Steal my breath

You're so unpredictable,

That's what I'm comin home to

Oh I'm dreamin' 'bout a romance , slow dancin' with you

When I got you in my arms, 

I don't care what we do

 

And I'll say hey,

You'll say baby,

How's your day I'll say crazy,

But its all gonna be alright,

You'll kiss my smile,

I'll pull you closer,

Spend awhile just gettin' to know ya,

But its all gonna be alright,

Loving you tonight

 

'Cause everyday is just the in between

The hours separating you from me 

I know you'll be waiting, I know you'll be waiting

And I'll say hey,

You'll say baby,

How's your day I'll say crazy,

But its all gonna be alright,

You'll kiss my smile,

I'll pull you closer,

Spend awhile just gettin' to know ya,

But its all gonna be alright,

Loving you tonight

Oompa Loompas

I owe the credit to this blog to Nethmi who gave me this great idea to write about oompa loompas. To be honest, I know they're from Charlie and the Chocolate Factory but I really can't remember anything about them. Oompa Loompas are pretty cool though... I guess....

Although I have to say, it has been a very long time since I've seen Charlie and the Chocolate Factory. I kind of want to watch it again now. That was a great movie. It's kind of making me crave chocolate just thinking about it. I think my favourite part of that movie was when that girl blew up, sort of like a balloon. I can't remember exactly what she ate before that happened but I remember thinking it would be fun to play with her like a ball. That's not funny at all, now that I'm reflecting on it...but you have to admit, she could've made a great dodgeball (meaning no one would be able to dodge her ;]). Of course, I didn't consider the fact that I probably wouldn't be able to pick her up. Well, I guess we can always use a catapult.

Okay, anyway, random blog that's really related to nothing for the day. :)